I feel as if I missed today. I know it happened because I remember being tired, but thinking back I hardly remember what actually happened. I know I woke up with a headache and thought it was 2 hours earlier than it actually was. Which means I was not at all ready when my hubby walked in with my son for me to entertain, but he was so cute I couldn't say no :). (Plus, his dad had to get ready for work, so I couldn't say no). I remember brewing a large pot of coffee. I see a full mug on the counter so I know I didn't finish the pot. (I should probably check the pot). I know my friend dropped her son off. I do remember that.
But really that's it for the morning.
I know I took the dog to the vet this afternoon. (No worries, just annual check up). I know I had to make 2 trips to the bank. (Long story and it took about an hour. Let's just say I needed an additional signature and it took a looong time to be able to get it). I know my friend picked up her son. (Mainly because he's not here).
Now how in the world did I become so zombie-ish that I don't remember the little things that filled in the rest of my day? Yikes. I think I should go to bed.... 8pm.... it just doesn't seem right, but it would feel so good. The dishwasher needs to be emptied, the kitchen tidied, the toys cleaned up and the table organized.... and yet I don't care. Can't care.... I'm floating in my zombie cloud. Now I'm just sounding like a lunatic. Which I believe should be my cue to end this post. Goodnight?
Monday, January 9, 2012
Saturday, January 7, 2012
Not so little...
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| This seems like eons ago... I've even begun to forget the extreme discomfort. |
I watched in amazement today as my 9 month old son climbed the entire flight of stairs within a matter of seconds (Dad was right behind him to make sure he didn't fall). He is not a baby anymore.
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| Seems like such a long time ago |
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| My precious boy |
He is growing up so fast. Just in this last month he has started crawling, pulling up, eating big people food, and climbing stairs. Just can't believe it.
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| He is such a ham |
Friday, January 6, 2012
Blown Away
I am currently reading Uneclipsing the Son by Rick Holland, and thanking God for blessing Rick with the words he's written. I just have to share some snip-its that have touched my heart.
"Looking for and seeing and gazing at the excellencies, the glories of Jesus leads to greater vision, sharper focus, deeper awareness of Jesus and His permanent abiding presence." p 59
"Manifestations of Christ are the equivalent of having our joy filled up, where we're overwhelmed, exulting, enjoying Christ, loving the fact that we've been saved, loving the person of Jesus." p 60
"We must set ourselves to study the Scriptures and to obey all that Christ is revealed to be in them because sin dampens our affections and dulls our souls to our only hope of satisfaction. Sin is the moon that eclipses the Son." p 61
"The essence of Christianity consists in believing. Reason makes us men, but faith makes us true Christians." Thomas Vincent p 64
"It is impossible to overstate how important the knowledge of Christ is to loving Him." p 64
"Everything our soul desires comes from understanding Jesus." p 65
"The truth is, what you want and what you need is Jesus, but you won't know that until you know Him. The more intensely He becomes the focused centrality of our faith, the more His worth overshadows all other joys." p 65
Reading this tonight has awakened something in me. I have to be completely honest and confess that it will probably not glare this brightly tomorrow as I am far too easily distracted by things that don't matter, but right now it's very clear. I have for a long time completely misunderstood my purpose as a Christian. It is not to live a "good" life. It is not to be an example to others. It is not to live so I can look back with no regrets. It is not to live for anyone else's opinions, respect, or betterment. "To live is Christ" if I may quote Paul; but to expound for my own sake, to live is to know Christ, to understand Him and love Him, to treasure deeply His sacrifice for me and the Words He left behind for me. How much I desire to live with singular focus, seeing only my Savior and living for His pleasure. How much better I would love those around me if I could truly get my head around how much Jesus loves me.
"Looking for and seeing and gazing at the excellencies, the glories of Jesus leads to greater vision, sharper focus, deeper awareness of Jesus and His permanent abiding presence." p 59
"Manifestations of Christ are the equivalent of having our joy filled up, where we're overwhelmed, exulting, enjoying Christ, loving the fact that we've been saved, loving the person of Jesus." p 60
"We must set ourselves to study the Scriptures and to obey all that Christ is revealed to be in them because sin dampens our affections and dulls our souls to our only hope of satisfaction. Sin is the moon that eclipses the Son." p 61
"The essence of Christianity consists in believing. Reason makes us men, but faith makes us true Christians." Thomas Vincent p 64
"It is impossible to overstate how important the knowledge of Christ is to loving Him." p 64
"Everything our soul desires comes from understanding Jesus." p 65
"The truth is, what you want and what you need is Jesus, but you won't know that until you know Him. The more intensely He becomes the focused centrality of our faith, the more His worth overshadows all other joys." p 65
Reading this tonight has awakened something in me. I have to be completely honest and confess that it will probably not glare this brightly tomorrow as I am far too easily distracted by things that don't matter, but right now it's very clear. I have for a long time completely misunderstood my purpose as a Christian. It is not to live a "good" life. It is not to be an example to others. It is not to live so I can look back with no regrets. It is not to live for anyone else's opinions, respect, or betterment. "To live is Christ" if I may quote Paul; but to expound for my own sake, to live is to know Christ, to understand Him and love Him, to treasure deeply His sacrifice for me and the Words He left behind for me. How much I desire to live with singular focus, seeing only my Savior and living for His pleasure. How much better I would love those around me if I could truly get my head around how much Jesus loves me.
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